Why Is Exist...??

 

Poetry about Soul and Life

I am wandering 

On different lands and shores

Trying to search my Soul

Why I exist...?

To follow a drifting path

To get ruined everyday..

By

People who call themselves 

Mine

But I am nowhere seen

I want to love myself..

But

No it's not my right

I am from the herd

Sent to this mortal world 

To,

Bear every wound

To boil in my soul's cauldron 

To let others ruin 

To let others roll over me

I am worn out soul

A person and a pathway stone

I am not at peace...

I am in pain...

Who is my healer..??

Who is my saviour..?

Why I exist...??

An answer yet to be found

Before I become 

Sand in Sand ....!!

Love at the Time of Chaos...!!

Do you want me to talk 

about LOVE...?

Do you really know anything about Love?

At the time of darkness

when

There is no Light of Hope

and

The World is silent over the bleeding 

small innocent kids, and their mothers

fathers, sisters and brothers

So what is meant by mankind

Do you preach Humanity....?

Are you a living sane soul...!

If yes....!!

Then why your  is not heard

You cannot talk about Oppressed Souls 

in this very Real World...!!

If Yes then why the hinger stricken 

old people, women and kids 

haven't got your attention...!!

Gaza is not your point of attention

India's Besieged Kashmir 

Fled with blood is not your moral value

to

talk, protest, and to raise your voices 

again the human like monsters

who are ruling the world

in fact

So, the dual faced Human Rights

are not understandable...

And more than that to talk about Love....

in these times of death, destruction and chaos...!!

Leaving Your Own Wonderland

Soul and Eternity 

Why you need to leave your 

Very own wonderland?

Some mystery?

Some anxiety?

Some far deep misery?

Some misfortune?

or 

It's your choice? 

An option 

A new corridor

Is opening there for you.. 

A wonder is here 

In my eyes, mind & soul ..

Might there be some.

Compromise

A dream of a better tomorrow

Which led you 

For a decision that 

Is not yours in fact...

A Divine Plan. .

So why worry and regret ..

Do you have any control 

Over your fate or destiny?

No ...!!

Then don't feel sad or bad...

Go with a flow 

As how you know..

Others my be living 

A life even less desirable....

Be content, be happy

At least stay calm..

And don't complaint...!!

The Soul has its Own Agony

Soul and Agony

My soul, O my sweet soul. 

Why you are wandering on..! 

bewildered lands.

When I know you are not 

At peace, in agreement with yourself.

Why wander for worldly leisures.

Pleasures and lust...! 

When you are never in agreement

With

Me! Your mortal cage..!!

Why you are never in agreement

With me?

I haven't done any fault.

To be here ...

To fill in my worldly appetite 

With mortal lust and desires..!

Why you can never give me an excuse?

Of being, mortal, weak.

And.  

A normal human...?

You have been to harsh.

To let me fly high...

To taste the syrup of this worldly life.

To gulp my inner wounds 

With fake laughter so .!

Why couldn't I cherish the moments? 

Why there was always a conscious

Awake and keep alarming me?

Of judgment and Divine Justice.

You know 

I have never hurt other souls.

With intent...!!

Or do you really doubt it?

My very inner wilder intentions...

How Sanity Works for Different People Who Care about Self-Esteem as Well

Sanity and Self-Esteem

Life is unpredictable and so are human beings, with a variant psyche it is the most difficult thing to predict anything about this race. The conflicting situations among the human conscious mind, subconscious and unconscious desires, and instincts vary so much that it is really hard to imagine how people will react in different situations. For people like me, self-esteem and keeping our sanctity are always very important. But I ask myself a question as if I maintain my respect within or outside society to the level that I always craved for…!!

I am not asking for the glitz, gloss, and glamorous life of a celebrity but a simple and normal recognition that anyone can look up for having in his or her circle of relations and social relations. The most important thing is our very own sanctity that we need to never compromise on it. But we do it in the name of life, friendships, not to spoil a social relationship, to secure our jobs, and for a lot of other things. It is not the case with me as I am in a dilemma of being nice to everyone, and then trying to snap at people who have crossed their limits and have intruded into my circle of self-respect. 

What a strange psyche we carry with a desire to be loved and respected by others, How different people play with our emotions depending upon how weak we are concerning a desire to find someone who cares for us without anything in return. How we lost our trust and our very own sanctity in trying to reach the unreachable, and it is not subject to that we desire for the stars. They are as ordinary as us but those people come and then stay in our lives for the sake of the fulfillment of their problems, loneliness, the desire of being social, lust, material desires, and lots more. When they find their needs fulfilled out in some other and better way then they don’t care a second to kick us out of their lives. 

Why do people try to fool us and play with our true feeling and emotions as they know that we are really keeping them very special in our hearts, minds, and souls? This question is not solved by me to date except a notion that expectations need to be kept in control, and then don’t let others be your masters of emotions. As they might leave at any instance, and they will use you for their very own instinctive desires that also include the carnal or bodily lust. Then they can easily find an excuse to leave, and many people these days don’t even bother to create an excuse. They are experts in using our weak points in emotions then silently blocking and walking away, and they damn care as if we are in pain. We want them to reconnect or at least respond to our pure and sweet gestures with a token of friendship, and an assurance that they are busy but have us in their lives and hearts. 

Does it cost anything to let people feel easy, relaxed, comfortable, and to give them a status of being connected? Why if someone is emotionally imbalanced and a person who cannot get out of any good or bad experience so easily tries hard to reconnect, and then bashed to the core with losing all dignity and disrespected for what. Forgiving another person respect that he never deserved or for being a fool enough to form expectations from that person who held and controlled us for his or her temporary cravings. Al least we can have a catharsis that we were used to serving someone in his or her difficult times, and does it matters?

The self-respect is so much compromised by us actually that we expect that their words and actions had some base and that they were actually behind their temporary desires and they don’t find a reason or grace enough to say goodbye respectfully. They cannot even excuse us for using our time, feelings, emotions in every way and now they don’t need us anymore. At least, it will suggest to us that we were badly used, and then we have to recover our nerves for the greater good of our own lives, values, and for people who matter in our lives. Then we may learn what are our success goals, and as we cannot be that cheap and selfish, which is a really good human trait. Then we have a way to move forward and work for our very own success and soul satisfaction to be or right path. It is important for our worldly life and hereafter for sure…!!

What Life is Teaching Me...!!

Life and Lesson

What life is teaching me

I often wonder...!

Why i am suffering

why I am so silly

What happened at time 

When I knew nothing of Sins...

When I was just so simple

But

Life treated me like 

I was a Criminal 

Tortured me like a hell on earth

I tried hope

I tried Peace of Mind

I wanted to reconciliate with life

But

Nothing came to rescue me

Devil was strong stood with me

Tried every tactics and I was engulfed

I am still trying hard to find peace

To repent over sins

To ask for Forgiveness to God Almighty

I am hopeful He Will Answer with Love

and Remedies of worldly 

and Soul's wounds....

I am hopeful 

life has in fact taught me a lot

I Guess.....!!

Lost the Glory of Hope....!!

Life and Eternity

I am deep inside a cage of life....!!
Trying hard to combat 
what comes around me as a worldly trap...
but
The illusions and delusions of life 
The final chapters of all the books I have read....
Ask me to begin ....!!
To move forward
look beyond the horizons and find peace
Where is peace and serenity/
Where is love and hope enticed in rainbow colors 
No....
Not here my dear....
Might be in eternity....
But still it lies here
Might Be 
Or what next....? 

Life is Worth a Second Chance?

Life and Love

I am living a Life

One that is worth thousand smiles

I am having all Blessings

Which I cannot recall

I want to die a death

To

Be peaceful and free of madness

I hate to be a difficult person

I love to live a relieved life

but…

It is not easy and I am dying with 

Slow poison of…

Luxuries, dreams and searchable love

I want to get that peace of Soul

Hard to find in this mortal world

I am not into suicide

And to let go all fears

Everything is so strange

and

Yet so difficult

To handle and bear anymore…!!

But

It is worth a second chance

To let me have more experiences

And to

Ask for forgiveness to God Almighty,,,,,

Where is Heaven or Hell…!!

Soul in Heaven

Love the life that you are living

Dying to get the best out of mortal things

Live for the great wonders that life throws at you

but

Your soul do not belong here

It is immortal and from another place

Are you living a life that leads you to heavens?

Or to a place called Hell

I wonder the mortality and how strange we act

We love the material things which are soon

Going to burst sand and dust

We never wander from where our Souls arrive here

Where it is destined to go

Heaven or Hell is all inside us

We pave our ways for delights of soul in paradise….

Our own misdeeds ask us to dig our holes for Hell forever

So

My dear it is yours and mine choice….

To

Leave for the Eternal Happiness

or

A Pain that is undefined and will never end….

Here is time to act

and to Think

About our own choices…..!!

Let ME Live in Peace!

Kids are Kids Universal Rule

(A Plight of Syrian and Palestinian Child)

I am fragrant flower

Who is going to bloom one fine day

I haven’t seen this world too far

I don’t know how to use gadgets

Which your kids are born with

I cannot think of Super Heroes

My hero is my father, uncle or brother

Who are martyred by your self-proclaimed?

Right of justifiable JUSTICE

My blood is worthless while your is precious

You want to save your kids from pains

Only imaginary

But I am facing death, hunger, turmoil and disasters

Everyday

I can see your planes flying over my head

Splashing cluster bombs and missiles

To safeguard HUMANITY

Only Selective and Owned by You

Have you ever faced yourself in mirror?

Or explained your child my case

NO

You cannot answer his blunt but bursting truth

Why there is a missile inflicted on some other kids

With in-scripted LOVE

Do you know the meaning of Love?

Peace and Harmony

Not you don’t

And

I am not going to forgive you here

And in Eternal Life as Well

Build Your Own Castels

Love and Dreams

Love is bound to exist
in one way or other
You can love the blooming flowers
Love the tiny fingers of a newborn
Find Peace and Solace
Love your freedom to Be Yourself
Love to die for a cause
Do not cage your souls into...!!
Perceptions long sold out
Build your own Castles
Live
Your very own Dreams...!
Make peace with hurting thoughts
Love without expectations
Make a a Resolution
Passion must  be there....!
Love must be inside your being
Follow your own Dream...!
One way or other 
you are going to win
if you do not lose your very own being
You have to have peace inside
Soul is deeply waiting fro love
make a resolution
and dreams unlimited

Beauty and Beholder’s Eyes!

 

Beauty and Human Perceptions

I wonder how this whole world seems to every person, and is there a same phenomenon of objectively defining Beauty all around the globe. According to my perception it is not the case as every region has its own standards of human as well as natural beauty. A European concept of beauty is quite different from Asian, and then from African or Far Eastern standards.

The old age concept is quitter true as the real aesthetics lie in every individual‘s eyes. So the beholder’s perception about love and beauty is all too important. I see so many things around like a windy day and the swirling of trees but when I discuss about these attributes of Nature to my friends or Colleagues. They say “We don’t find it very much exciting”. Even I was surprised at the statement when I read that ‘Nelson Mandela’ said about his ex-wife ‘Winnie’ being the most beautiful woman on earth.

I got a shock like she was even so ordinary according to African standards of beauty. So I get a new realization that the Love and Aura attraction supersedes the rest of resorts and parameters. When you are in love then your beloved is the most beautiful human being ever created in planet earth. Similarly some traditional standards of beauty announce some lady or gentleman to be the sexiest and most beautiful person. At the same time we can hear so many people rejecting these labels.

At the same level when I say that I like autumn and fallen leaves as one of the most beautiful sights then most of people reject my thesis. It is not due to prejudice but a Divine Will to make different sorts of attractions for different human beings. Otherwise the world would have been so tale and sluggish as goods were all time good and bad things were always on a black list!

So my dear readers when you are going to admire about someone then just leave this expectation out of your mind that everyone will nod YES to you. So have your own perception about the beautiful objects, and then also try to analyze how other people see things with different perspectives. Try to learn the art of loving everything that is radiating positivity into the world, and a matter of joy for some good reasons. Here Inner Beauty comes as the best and foremost choice for everyone!!

My Soul Asks for Peace!!

 

Soul Satisfaction and Journey of Life

I am walking on a lonely path!

That is swallowing my passions and strengths

I feel like losing what a soul I was

Or it is a matter of time

that

Makes everyone change a path of life

I am not on a road that described my being!

I am walking all straight without knowing the line to follow

The world is a combination of distractions

And I am a weak fellow for this world

Full of masks of dead feelings

My heart yearns for true love

And find hypocrites all around

May be I am not in love with this world

and

Something inside is breaking me

A desire to be in a world that is lovable

Where there is peace within and all around

But I know there is no peace around

Only death can take me to that Paradise

Where I will be in comfort of soul and have peaceful life!

Will I be in Paradise is a question that I fear

not to ask

To my soul and to get its true answer!!

True Love Needs No Parameters of Expression!

 

Love and Human Psyche

It might be my own perception but I like it that way, and I am convinced that true love exists right here in this world. People do fall in love for other persons and it requires no specifications. How we define LOVE is something that needs to be discussed. Some people think that a quantity of time spent together is a parameter of true love while others believe in quality of it!

How to Define Love in Different Perspectives!

So it is hot debate among different races in ancient times, and a subject matter of literature in medieval age, and it is a far Complex Issue in Modern Times. We are not certain of what we really mean by loving someone. Here I am referring to ‘Romantic Love’ but I am not forgetting the importance of Love and Compassion for different blood relations, friends and for nature as well!

What Kind of People Fall in Love for General Humanity and for What Reasons!

People do fall in love at a broader spectrum and they do not bind themselves with only a single expression, and to devote their love for only one human being. Look at the example of “Mother Teresa” who left her life of conveniences, and devoted herself to serve the underprivileged people of India. Did she put all efforts for personal recognition or for wining some award like ‘Nobel Prize’? No! It happened out of a true emotional love for humanity and for seeing people in better conditions of life.

Why People Sacrifice their Comforts for the Love and Freedom of their Nations?

Here I would like to mention about “Muhammad Ali Jinnah” whom the citizens of Pakistan call “Father of the Nation”. He literally devoted his whole life for the sake of independence and freedom of his countrymen, and to let a separate homeland for Muslim of Sub Continent, to live in peace and practice their basic principles of Islam in a best manner. Why he did all this as he was a successful lawyer and a rich man? He enjoyed all luxuries of his time, and what made him stand out of crowd to and decide to devote his life for others!

What is the Motivational Factor of Love of Nation to Fight for a Cause?

It is just too phenomenal with some people that they Love to find PEACE and Comfort for others, and they go beyond imagination to make personal sacrifices for others. Here you can look at the life of “Nelson Mandela” who devoted 27 years in prison, to let black people of South Africa have their right of equality, and a right to live like rest of human beings of the world. Would you say that he was crazy? No he was not but in fact more practical than living in dreams like others of a seen or unseen beloved!!

What is the Reality of Divine Love and Spiritual Elevation!

On a further level of discussion we can look at the lives of those Spiritual Leaders who left all worldly leisure and pleasures for seeking Divine Love. They were not insane but they wanted to escape from the limited mind frame that only wanted to get material gains, and to fall for lust in order to gain Love kind of thing. Their love for Nature and God Almighty was and still is all pure, and it is beyond any expectations and gains for this world.

So I would love to conclude my hypothesis that there are no set standards and parameters of love. So there were and right at this moment there exist people who fall in multifaceted kinds of love. This will keep on happening, and eventually link to the Universe, to find true meaning of Human Existence and to go in search of pure and deep-rooted love for sure!!

Real Earnings of Life – A Query !!

 

Motivation and Desire to Live wit Peace of Mind

When I was a teenager then I listened to a poem by a famous Urdu Poet “Ibn Insha”. He wrote in a very beautiful and in a river flow manner about LIFE and what Human Beings really earn out of this short span of time on Earth. Yes! We are no this planet for a short time, and even don’t know when our end will come. Death is waiting for each soul like a hawk is waiting for its prey to capture!

We are blindfolded with ‘Worldly Passions and Desires’ and forget about this greatest reality that is intact with us from the time of our births. So the poet who had developed cancer to a last stage was asking or in fact begging to God Almighty, to grant him some more days of ‘Life as a Loan’. As he had to perform many duties, and say his love things to those with whom he was always able to remain in a state of unsaid relationship!

Life is really an ILLUSION and only our Instinct of Survival gives us direction to work on plans. But do you really think that everybody in present days or in past has or had spent his or her life in a positive way? A Big NO! I am sure you will agree to my point as we all have read in History Tales that people ruined and crushed whole nations and civilizations for their lust of the world and material things, and to have a desire to remain in history forever!

It is not a matter of discussion here that Hitler, Picoche, Edie Amin, Pharaohs, Alexander the Great or other known names are still alive in our books. Though they were on negative side of life and dealings with others! We are still watching the Films and Television Serials on barbarous acts of Greek or Roman Elites. But have you ever given it a second though as what those people took with themselves. Even if you do not believe in “Afterlife” as I do then still my query stands right here!

Don’t you think that those people turned into dust particles, nitrogen or ashes mixed in soil or water? Whatever remains are the historical monuments or the great buildings but what they got out of all cruelty and barbarism? Nothing to be true! So why not we all start to think about Humanity and its Miseries and Pains as a Collective Issue! 

Who knows what is happening to them in life hereafter, and if you do not believe in it then won’t you agree that it was even more for a momentary pleasure what they did? They are in the history and minds of people as the negative of evil personalities, and we remember them as brutes and whatever not to say. So to love humanity and to try to make peace in this present world of ours must be a simple quest for everyone. 

If we are fair enough then we can start it from ourselves and this positive vibe to save human beings from further tortures, pains, killings and other kinds of evil activities will definitely vanish out of this world. It will be a Heaven like experience right here on earth, even before experiencing it in real. Won’t you agree with my point of view, and I will love to have your democratic port of views for sure. Thank you readers!!

My Eyes are Wandering for Dreams!

Wandering Eyes for Dreams

My eyes are wandering for dreams
The ones I cannot catch a glimpse

The ones I dare not to see

The ones that takes me away from sane world

Into wilderness of desires

To

Fight a battle of love and triumphs

I want to die a peaceful death

But

My Dreams ask me to get on a move

To

Reach for a new Destiny

That is still unknown and

Full of fears and destructive visions

I am dying with the hope to get some hopes

Not a single thing keeps me at peace

But

I have no reason to let go off this life

It is a Divine Rule

I have to LIVE and keep on searching for some Dreams

That might be found in a trash

Thrown by some others beings

But

A Breathing Companion for Me!