Monday, June 24, 2024

My Soul is No More My Friend

Soul Satisfaction and Peace of Mind
My Soul is No More My Friend 

On my very sad moments 

I want you to be my side

As...

I find No Companion 

No Listener of My Grievance 

But...

You are no more there 

To pat on my shoulder,

To cry out loud with me 

To help me feel better 

With better tomorrow 

Better scenarios

And to let my know that 

After every darkness 

There is light ...

Now you push me more 

Into the dark holes of despair

To weep over my losses 

As all due to my 

Shallow self...

I am long dead inside 

You know it...

But

Why you want me to suffer 

More and more

And that's why you arise

Day dreams and desires 

Do strong inside my hollow being

You don't pity me anymore 

You seem to cherish

My suffering and why

You are more of an enemy 

To me...

But still In don't know why 

My only lifelong companion 

My soul ..where are you...!!

Wednesday, November 1, 2023

Love at the Time of Chaos...!!

Gaza War and Genocide

Do you want me to talk 

about LOVE...?

Do you really know anything about Love?

At the time of darkness

when

There is no Light of Hope

and

The World is silent over the bleeding 

small innocent kids, and their mothers

fathers, sisters and brothers

So what is meant by mankind

Do you preach Humanity....?

Are you a living sane soul...!

If yes....!!

Then why your  is not heard

You cannot talk about Oppressed Souls 

in this very Real World...!!

If Yes then why the hinger stricken 

old people, women and kids 

haven't got your attention...!!

Gaza is not your point of attention

India's Besieged Kashmir 

Fled with blood is not your moral value

to

talk, protest, and to raise your voices 

again the human like monsters

who are ruling the world

in fact

So, the dual faced Human Rights

are not understandable...

And more than that to talk about Love....

in these times of death, destruction and chaos...!!

Thursday, December 15, 2022

Leaving Your Own Wonderland


Soul and Mind
Soul and Eternity 

Why you need to leave your 

Very own wonderland?

Some mystery?

Some anxiety?

Some far deep misery?

Some misfortune?

or 

It's your choice? 

An option 

A new corridor

Is opening there for you.. 

A wonder is here 

In my eyes, mind & soul ..

Might there be some.

Compromise

A dream of a better tomorrow

Which led you 

For a decision that 

Is not yours in fact...

A Divine Plan. .

So why worry and regret ..

Do you have any control 

Over your fate or destiny?

No ...!!

Then don't feel sad or bad...

Go with a flow 

As how you know..

Others my be living 

A life even less desirable....

Be content, be happy

At least stay calm..

And don't complaint...!!

Sunday, July 17, 2022

The Soul has its Own Agony

Soul-Motivation-Optimism-Life-Afterlife
Soul and Agony

My soul, O my sweet soul. 

Why you are wandering on..! 

bewildered lands.

When I know you are not 

At peace, in agreement with yourself.

Why wander for worldly leisures.

Pleasures and lust...! 

When you are never in agreement

With

Me! Your mortal cage..!!

Why you are never in agreement

With me?

I haven't done any fault.

To be here ...

To fill in my worldly appetite 

With mortal lust and desires..!

Why you can never give me an excuse?

Of being, mortal, weak.

And.  

A normal human...?

You have been to harsh.

To let me fly high...

To taste the syrup of this worldly life.

To gulp my inner wounds 

With fake laughter so .!

Why couldn't I cherish the moments? 

Why there was always a conscious

Awake and keep alarming me?

Of judgment and Divine Justice.

You know 

I have never hurt other souls.

With intent...!!

Or do you really doubt it?

My very inner wilder intentions...


Thursday, March 10, 2022

Blow My Soul to New Heights O Whistling Wind...!!

Soul and Depresion
Soul and Mortality 

Blow me to the far and above

To and fro with wind... 

O the whistling wind

You want me to stay away

towards

an unseen land where

Dreams become reality

Where I will be a free soul

No restrictions, no judgments....

Yes

I am judged and that too harshly

by mortal beings around me

Who have flaws like or more than me

But I am the target ...!!

I am the victim

The whole world around me is the judge

Everyone is an angle

I am the fallen one with wings broken.

Was I ever given the due credit 

of being existent..?

No...

An abandoned soul with no voice

Only judgments and verdicts

Oh, my flying soul...

Let's move to the world 

where 

You will be free...!!

I will be no more judged

Whether my sins will get me eternal torture.....

Or

I would be rewarded for all the suffering that my being 

has suffered ...!

In this cruel mortal world

I am sad, lonely, and tired

Let me give courage and hope

I don't want to live

But...

I have to live and move on to the cycle of life..!!

I cannot move to jungles...

But please pardon me you mortal world

I don't belong to you...

Just leave me on my own

Till my last breath let me escape from this prison

The cage of body and mind

I want to move and please be on your own

I am tired...

Blow the wind to sway my soul 

For a timely relief at least....!!

Sunday, December 5, 2021

Sometimes It is Good to Revisit Our Past to have Reality Checks…!!

Life, History, and Reality

I am supposed to be an optimistic person with a motivation to lead my life, and a vision to stay in the present moment as it is the only time we have. But, it is not always the case as visiting our past and revisiting history for the sake of learning and finding how man builds and destroys his individual or collective life. My visit to the past was somehow unplanned, and it started with a movie that I had watched around twenty years back. There was a favorite actor of mine in it, and he was one of the most dashing, smart, and stylish actors of that time. I wonder if his looks and style are still up to the present time fashion. 

That’s how some people stay ahead of time and can display something that is called the evergreen sort of thing. I had a flash of memories associated not with that film but with the period, and the age when I first watched it. The depressive issues, problems, and the vigor to conquer the world in those youthful times were visualized again. Then I kept on comparing my present time lifestyle, the issues, my mindset, and how I have transformed. 

In many cases, I am much more strong, self-awareness and wisdom might be more. But the vigor, enthusiasm, and charm, and attraction towards life are quite lessened. I was trying to find out the real meaning of life right now. Why and how people are so much indulged in running behind the material world, false emotions, fallacies, and fall from grace for the sake of other mortal humans. Who left us long ago without giving a second thought and value to our love, feelings, and emotions? What was the use of trying to be in the hearts and minds of others when in the end others use us for their pastimes, and for having a listener and compassionate person in their tough times?

That’s how life is as an old film watched again gave me food for thought and a whole track to rethink how and why we have wasted so much time is useless things. At the current time, we are closer to our deaths as the end seems to give me another direction, to work for a collection of stuff that will be the real asset in the afterlife, not the one for the purposeless investment into this mortal world. But, we have to pass the remaining time in this world, as we have to learn, provide a better life for people who are dependent on us, and to strive for a better lifestyle as I am not twenty years younger as like the time of the movie that I watched. 

It is a bit of a sad but interesting thing to see that a young and handsome man as a hero in the film is also old, with obesity and age has taken away his glory youthful charm. That’s how I resemble the blooming flower and then it’s fading and falling away, petal by petal and as a pale worn-out unwanted object. Ahhh! The strange facts of life are not going to change for anyone

Here, I would like to quote one of the most beautiful novels that came in the last two decades. Arundhati Roy in her novel “God of Small Things”. When she talked about the character Ammu, who was 31 years old, and she used the phrase “a dieable viable age”. This sentence still haunts me with being closer to all viable to die at any moment. SO, it’s time to prepare for the final destination, and to look and pray for the best things that are promised by God Almighty in Paradise, and to work on it instead of keeping grudges, hatred, jealousy, revenge, pessimism, and other useless emotions in our hearts, minds, and souls anymore.

Wednesday, December 1, 2021

Living on the Edge of Finding a True Identity…!!


Life and Self-Identity


Being different is not a bliss that I used to feel when I was younger, and to move towards the top on the hill with some extraordinary was a matter of distinction as well. But the hardcore realities and experiences of life asked me to change my perceptions. To be different is okay so far it is not creating isolation for you in a social, cultural environment, and your relationships. To be able to survive, and with a better lifestyle and find a graceful space on this stage of the world is an art that we must learn if not have mastered to date. The different, unique, artistic, abstract, compassionate, and nice people are exemplary but unfortunately don’t fit in the present world. 


Living in this world means we have to be strong, own our self-esteem, and keep our success and goals on top. Never to compromise on things that really can hurt us, and our efforts to reconstruct and to build ourselves are highly important for us. The best thing is to never compromise basic ethics, values, principles, and then things are going to work great for others. It is not necessary to adapt everything that the current situation or the environment can offer. The check and balance is something that everybody has to put on himself, not by others in a way around. 


Making a success story in this cutthroat world of competition is something that matters. But it will happen after one sees and finds his true identity as to what is the real meaning of life. How we can boost our living standards, and work on improving our concepts, ideas, knowledge, and skills for our betterment, and how to look for a greater vision to be different but acceptable. We can keep our sanctity and uniqueness alive if we do not hassle with the rest of the world. Let’s decide our journey and way to live in a way, and then things will be all that great. 


Keeping our line straight and understanding is the right path that will lead us to a pure life in this mortal world and will enable us to enter Paradise in the afterlife then everything is cool. It is not a matter of concern to follow our dreams that were either childish or closer to impossibilities. As soon as we accept the real-world scenario, and how it asks us to move then things will be all okay, and we will have peace of mind, heart, and soul that is highly essential for us, to sync in with the current world expectations, and to have a real normal life that is mostly hard to survive and find in the present world scenario. It is a matter of time that people value outer presence, financial status, lifestyle, bold is beautiful. It is a way of the world and we have to face this bitter reality, and why not with optimism and passion to serve ourselves, and the closed ones in the best ways that we can to not just survive, but to live peacefully…!!