Sometimes It is Good to Revisit Our Past to have Reality Checks…!!

Life, History, and Reality

I am supposed to be an optimistic person with a motivation to lead my life, and a vision to stay in the present moment as it is the only time we have. But, it is not always the case as visiting our past and revisiting history for the sake of learning and finding how man builds and destroys his individual or collective life. My visit to the past was somehow unplanned, and it started with a movie that I had watched around twenty years back. There was a favorite actor of mine in it, and he was one of the most dashing, smart, and stylish actors of that time. I wonder if his looks and style are still up to the present time fashion. 

That’s how some people stay ahead of time and can display something that is called the evergreen sort of thing. I had a flash of memories associated not with that film but with the period, and the age when I first watched it. The depressive issues, problems, and the vigor to conquer the world in those youthful times were visualized again. Then I kept on comparing my present time lifestyle, the issues, my mindset, and how I have transformed. 

In many cases, I am much more strong, self-awareness and wisdom might be more. But the vigor, enthusiasm, and charm, and attraction towards life are quite lessened. I was trying to find out the real meaning of life right now. Why and how people are so much indulged in running behind the material world, false emotions, fallacies, and fall from grace for the sake of other mortal humans. Who left us long ago without giving a second thought and value to our love, feelings, and emotions? What was the use of trying to be in the hearts and minds of others when in the end others use us for their pastimes, and for having a listener and compassionate person in their tough times?

That’s how life is as an old film watched again gave me food for thought and a whole track to rethink how and why we have wasted so much time is useless things. At the current time, we are closer to our deaths as the end seems to give me another direction, to work for a collection of stuff that will be the real asset in the afterlife, not the one for the purposeless investment into this mortal world. But, we have to pass the remaining time in this world, as we have to learn, provide a better life for people who are dependent on us, and to strive for a better lifestyle as I am not twenty years younger as like the time of the movie that I watched. 

It is a bit of a sad but interesting thing to see that a young and handsome man as a hero in the film is also old, with obesity and age has taken away his glory youthful charm. That’s how I resemble the blooming flower and then it’s fading and falling away, petal by petal and as a pale worn-out unwanted object. Ahhh! The strange facts of life are not going to change for anyone. 

Here, I would like to quote one of the most beautiful novels that came in the last two decades. Arundhati Roy in her novel “God of Small Things”. When she talked about the character Ammu, who was 31 years old, and she used the phrase “a dieable viable age”. This sentence still haunts me with being closer to all viable to die at any moment. SO, it’s time to prepare for the final destination, and to look and pray for the best things that are promised by God Almighty in Paradise, and to work on it instead of keeping grudges, hatred, jealousy, revenge, pessimism, and other useless emotions in our hearts, minds, and souls anymore.