Sometimes It is Good to Revisit Our Past to have Reality Checks…!!

Life, History, and Reality

I am supposed to be an optimistic person with a motivation to lead my life, and a vision to stay in the present moment as it is the only time we have. But, it is not always the case as visiting our past and revisiting history for the sake of learning and finding how man builds and destroys his individual or collective life. My visit to the past was somehow unplanned, and it started with a movie that I had watched around twenty years back. There was a favorite actor of mine in it, and he was one of the most dashing, smart, and stylish actors of that time. I wonder if his looks and style are still up to the present time fashion. 

That’s how some people stay ahead of time and can display something that is called the evergreen sort of thing. I had a flash of memories associated not with that film but with the period, and the age when I first watched it. The depressive issues, problems, and the vigor to conquer the world in those youthful times were visualized again. Then I kept on comparing my present time lifestyle, the issues, my mindset, and how I have transformed. 

In many cases, I am much more strong, self-awareness and wisdom might be more. But the vigor, enthusiasm, and charm, and attraction towards life are quite lessened. I was trying to find out the real meaning of life right now. Why and how people are so much indulged in running behind the material world, false emotions, fallacies, and fall from grace for the sake of other mortal humans. Who left us long ago without giving a second thought and value to our love, feelings, and emotions? What was the use of trying to be in the hearts and minds of others when in the end others use us for their pastimes, and for having a listener and compassionate person in their tough times?

That’s how life is as an old film watched again gave me food for thought and a whole track to rethink how and why we have wasted so much time is useless things. At the current time, we are closer to our deaths as the end seems to give me another direction, to work for a collection of stuff that will be the real asset in the afterlife, not the one for the purposeless investment into this mortal world. But, we have to pass the remaining time in this world, as we have to learn, provide a better life for people who are dependent on us, and to strive for a better lifestyle as I am not twenty years younger as like the time of the movie that I watched. 

It is a bit of a sad but interesting thing to see that a young and handsome man as a hero in the film is also old, with obesity and age has taken away his glory youthful charm. That’s how I resemble the blooming flower and then it’s fading and falling away, petal by petal and as a pale worn-out unwanted object. Ahhh! The strange facts of life are not going to change for anyone. 

Here, I would like to quote one of the most beautiful novels that came in the last two decades. Arundhati Roy in her novel “God of Small Things”. When she talked about the character Ammu, who was 31 years old, and she used the phrase “a dieable viable age”. This sentence still haunts me with being closer to all viable to die at any moment. SO, it’s time to prepare for the final destination, and to look and pray for the best things that are promised by God Almighty in Paradise, and to work on it instead of keeping grudges, hatred, jealousy, revenge, pessimism, and other useless emotions in our hearts, minds, and souls anymore.

Something About the Author

 Life is a journey from cradle till grave embraces someone. But what comes in a journey is not always by someone’s choice, and still we live our lives with our own set of goals. We are triumphant at very many times, and then sometimes there are trials and errors that make us learn to do something else that was not in our personal set roadmap. It is called learning from events, life lessons and the experiences that shape our personalities. Ask us to be strong, confident, learn new things, and then an individual is all settled to swim in the deep oceans. One thing that goes for me from my childhood is trying to learn new and innovative things. If you give me a book then I don’t need to have any social activity or media to shadow me with loud and dramatic sounds.

Well, I am not in any way anti-social in any way if you assume from my earlier description. I love to interact, communicate, read, and write blogs, articles, poetry, music, movies and social media. Off course, reading and writing wear and still are my passion from the childhood. I did my first Masters Degree in Business Administration. It was something of a dream by the youth of 90s. It was really interesting to go through such diverse subjects, and to come to know about new theories and concepts. My majors was in Marketing. It was all fun to study but the craving to read and more than that to get a degree in literature was in my veins, pushing me to move for another degree, and the one I always love to attain! So, there I went with an admission in Masters in English Language and Literature. It opened my eyes to a new world. Full of ideas, thoughts, thought provoking philosophies by different authors and poets.

I guess that was the point in my life when I felt that I must be a writer and to have my own book by my side one fine day. My hunger to read more of world’s literature didn’t stop me top English only. I read the cream of Urdu literature, Russian, Brazilian, French, Latin, German, American and Chinese literature. There I feel my outer and inner eyes got a wider opening, and I could sense the human nature and psychology to a greater depth. I moved with people and cultures and tried to understand human miseries, sorrows, joys and generic emotions. Literature helped me be a better, sensible, calm, silent observer, to understand the value of integrity and self-esteem which are my prime focus where I am living or working. So, these things are not compromised otherwise I am a very compassionate person.

Even I try to forgive and forget the typical professional politics and other such games. Being professional and keeping yourself to your own tasks, and within your comfort zone is mostly up to you. I studies and learnt it from proper professionals who were my mentors at different stages of personal and professional life. I got my third degree in Philosophy as anybody who thinks quietly or loudly is a philosopher in my opinion. The study of philosophy made me realize the fact “Grass in Not Green for Everyone”. So, all we need to do is to keep on moving with our own goals, and with our best pace.

To never lose motivation and optimism for the sake of some people or experiences. Who actually came in my way to teach something new and how to be a part of the bandwagon of obsessive cult of people who can bulldoze anyone for the sake of saving their jobs or to make points? I am a simple, normal and a sane person who loves to do what he is assigned to do, and then there is my comfort zone that is out of my job and daily chores. I am self-blogger and a love to read, write, watch movies and travel if get chance and fine time.

To never lose motivation and optimism for the sake of some people or experiences. Who actually came in my way to teach something new and how to be a part of the bandwagon of obsessive cult of people who can bulldoze anyone for the sake of saving their jobs or to make points? I am a simple, normal and a sane person who loves to do what he is assigned to do, and then there is my comfort zone that is out of my job and daily chores. I am self-blogger and a love to read, write, watch movies and travel if get chance and fine time.

I Am Nowhere to be Found…!!

Life and Soul

I am all lost with my soul in transition

I am not going to feel all that pain

Misery that is enveloped me

With never changing costume…!

I am living dead

I am waiting for Heaven

Which for me is far away…

The curse of Life is far burdensome to handle

I am sad, I am lonely

I want to be at peace with myself…

But there is no Space no Peace of Mind

No Confider….

The Ultimate Listener

Is all in annoyance with me

I have stained SOUL…

Once I was living this mortal life

with all its joyful attributes

But now a Hollow Being…

A helpless soul…

And detached heart…

I am not in Heaven

and

You cannot find me at least

till

Time untold of unknown…!

Friendship, Brotherhood and Bonding!!

We call friend to everyone who talks to us smoothly and helps us out in something. But does it really that simple I mean the definition of Selfless Friend does exist. Yes! It is here right in front of our eyes, and to keep us motivated and rejuvenated to do worldly tasks in a far better way. We need friends who can stay with us in difficult times, and have no prejudice or jealousy for any sort of gain.

I simply believe that a friendship as a spiritual bonding that is not relevant with age, places, race and distances. When we reach at a certain level of love and affection for others then we are forming brotherhood connection with that person. You might have heard or read that the worst of enemies in solitude and misery develop a comradeship or a brotherly bond.

In the same case we meet some people by chance and get so used to them that there is a feeling that we are living together for years or may be centuries. Actually it is all about soul connection and the matching Aura about which there are lots of myths and realities in Eastern Cultures. The close connections that are developed by hearts are not meant for material or worldly purposes, and it just come in our way as a routine matter.

But the twist in this tale comes when we lose such friend or brother. It is a disaster and a storm that you get through be yourself, and nobody around can see a glimpse of it. So the soul nourishes and agonizes in solitude, and it is one of the most difficult moment in the lives of those people who are mostly introvert. These kinds of people cannot form loose connections with everyone who comes in their way.

The brotherhood bond is vital if a friend is close to your beat of a heart. So this such solitude often leads to spiritual up rise, and saints emerge out of such ordinary situations. When you are able to form a direct contact with the Divine Light, and it may be due to the loss of a worldly relationship. You have not only lost a friend or brother but a part of yourself.

Now it is your will power and direction that might lead you to the new experiences of spiritual journey to boost as a human being or to get antidepressants as a regular part of your routine. You can make a loss to favour you in attaining something Really Great. If you are not able to do that then still you have formed a space in someone’s heat and mind that nobody can replace.

Part of My Being !!

The road down the hillside is all plain and yet beautiful. I am a traveler who keeps on passing at a site where nobody is aware of what is going to come up next. I am all in awe and wonder about the realities, and I am not going to lose that string of feeling that life is love and it just so happens that those whom you can’t touch still grab your heart. I can feel that part of my soul and body, still inborn but present with every breath of mine. I love to feel the visual displays of imagination that carries on forward with every moment transforming. 

How can I forget that moment when a thought raised within me that I have lost the unseen, untouched part of my being. I cried in remembrance and repentance to ALLAH ALMIGHTY. I was afraid that it might be due to my feeling that I am a person with so scarce resources, and yet trying to spread out my wings. I felt in previous days that I am just going far away in thinking something burdensome which is actually not a burden by our Creator. I felt the ocean of love for first time for that tiny presence, and losing it was like losing my sane self.

But I felt a strange yet blissful peace that it is from the One and Almighty, and nobody has a part in it including me. The reflection of love is the presence of it inside and I felt it for the sake of living a life of bowing myself in front of the Ultimate Reality. I was nowhere but in my senses to know that life has given me another chance to be conscious of the position that is designated for me. I am in thankfulness and in strange love for my soul’s part that is still hidden but makes me awake with its presence.