Lost Desires !!

I dreamed of reaching a hill top
Where I could see everything below
It is a moment of solitude
serenity and perfect peace
But how could I attain it
with 
Watchful eyes of humans
who forget their own dreams
to follow the paths that I wanted to travel 
all alone
here are pains, sufferings, losses
keeping me away to have a word with me
my daily chores ask me to face real facets with open eyes
Do I own a moment of my own life
No 
I have to live an ordinary life full of duties and doubts
or
to Die in search of Serenity and Soulful solitary moments
but
I have a reason
a logic to be all worldly and to leave MYSELF
all aside 
for the sake of being a creature 
of excellence!!